The Books I Am Not Writing

“…my literary career has not even begun yet. The plots for five novellas and two novels are languishing in my head. One of the novels was conceived so long ago that several of the characters have already grown old and out of date even before they had a chance to take form on paper. There is an entire army of people in my head begging to get out and just waiting for my command.”  -Anton Chekhov

This was my main insight while on the retreat, and I’m sorry to have to put it to you so bluntly. Writing for 15 minutes here and there, scribbling in the early mornings before rushing off to my teaching job — these things have kept me alive as a writer, but only just barely. I need more time.

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The Gell Center

I promised to tell you about my retreat. Although I am thankful to be home safely, and I missed my daughters (and, okay, my husband, too), I don’t think I can rave enough about how amazing this trip was for me.

The Gell Center is a rather ordinary-looking house sitting on a 26-acre estate  in the Fingerlakes Wine Region of New York State. Built in 1929 by Dr. and Mrs. Kenneth Gell, it was donated to Writers and Books upon Dr. Gell’s death. Writers and Books have served the bequest well, adding a lodge for larger groups, and two very cute cabins deeper in the woods (no water or electricity, alas).

If I know my audience, however, what YOU want to know is what I did there. I wrote. I got up every morning, very early. I scribbled in a notebook, as is my habit of many years, but I found that there was none of my usual whining about wishing I could be a “real” writer. By the end of the morning’s entry, in fact, I was usually drafting something to be typed into my novel manuscript.

The second step was to open my laptop and read what I had typed the previous day. This was “retyping,” mind you. But, still, there were plenty of changes to absorb. Remember last summer when (I think I shared this with you) I decided a character had to die? Well, for the longest time my manuscript simply sailed on after that chapter, with no significant consequences. I realized, sometime earlier this fall, that that wasn’t going to do. In a novel, everything has consequences. If a character coughs, she has TB. If a knife appears, someone is going to be stabbed.

As I often tell my students, everything in life has consequences, but in the turmoil and 11,000 bits of stimuli every minute, we often don’t pay attention to those consequences.

So I read aloud for a long time–often an hour or more. Then, I pulled out the as yet not retyped, extremely messed-up pages, and began typing. I typed about 5,000 words on an average day. I wrote one new scene, and made many, many changes throughout the manuscript.

I had a few other other things on my mind. It was “the Fingerlakes Wine Region,” after all.  I visited the Imagine Moore winery in Naples and bought a bottle of a white called “Gratitude.” (And I was grateful.) I had purchased groceries on my first day, but on a couple of days I went in search of the perfect cheeseburger. I found Lake Canandaigua and got spectacularly lost, but found my way home again.

I worked on the manuscript in the afternoons and early evenings, but by seven or eight o’clock I wanted other company. So I read books (there are over 1000 books at the Gell House, and of course I brought a suitcase full of them, coals to Newcastle). I watched TV shows on my laptop. At bedtime, without fail, I got out my notebook again and jotted down some additional ideas. I dreamed about my story! (Something I cannot ever remember doing while at home.)

At dawn and dusk there was an interesting rustling in the ceiling above the living room (the one with the amazing picture window) where I usually worked. At first I worried that there were mice or something, but it sounded too heavy. It sounded like a cat. One day this cat (see picture) was sitting on the lawn glaring at me. What do you think?

I’ll have a few additional insights to share–about the writing, not the cat–in my next post.

The Storm of the Century!

Out in my Cabin in the Woods in the wilds of New York State I was only on the periphery of the storm, but it was a doozy! I lost wi-fi right away. And then I spent a sleepless night as I listened to the wind howl and the trees creak against the house. Very exciting!

When I hit the road, I thought that I’d have wi-fi back (at those amazing rest stops on the NY Thruway), but my laptop’s Internet capability for some reason crashed. So I’m working on a computer at a Holiday Inn, catching up (frantically) with my three on-line classes, and preparing to drive to the airport (another three hours or so and I’ll be there; my flight is supposed to be on-time).

I will have lots to tell you about the retreat, but you’ll have to wait until I’m safely home in Edmonds.

“You are capable! You are a farm-girl!” I kept telling myself during the worst of the storm. Now, in the final stages of my novel rewrite, I’m going to try repeating those same mantras.

 

Nathaniel Hawthorne, 1804-1864

Hawthorne’s birthplace

Before I move on to tell you about my writing retreat, I want to share some pictures significant to Nathaniel Hawthorne in Salem and Boston. I’ve tinkered far too long trying to get the pictures right. Bear with me.

First, the house Hawthorne was born in, belonging to his grandfather, Captain Daniel Hathorne,  on Union Street in Salem. Built in 1750, the house was scheduled to be torn down in 1958, but was moved instead to the grounds of The House of Seven Gables Settlement Association. Having spent so many years studying Hawthorne, I couldn’t help but stand a long time in the upstairs bedroom where he was born. Just being present with whatever spirit remained in the place.

The House of Seven Gables

I was asked last winter to give a library talk about Hawthorne’s novel, The House of Seven Gables, and I’m feeling now as though I could. The tour was well worth the cost, though we weren’t allowed to take pictures inside. Among other interesting features (having been built onto, torn down in part, and rebuilt over the centuries), the house has a secret stairwell, very narrow, next to the chimney, which accounts for the sudden appearance of a character in the novel. The house has seven gables, indeed, and dormers as well. It’s an impressive structure.

And two more. One is of the Chipotle Grill I mentioned in a previous post, once a bookstore, once the home of Ticknor and Fields, Publishers. They also published Emerson and Harriet Beecher Stowe.

Finally, this gravestone (below) with its heraldic A is thought to have been an inspiration for The Scarlet Letter, which ends, “And, after many, many years, a new grave was delved, near an old and sunken one, in that burial-ground beside which King’s Chapel has since been built. It was near that old and sunken grave, yet with a space between, as if the dust of the two sleepers had no right to mingle. Yet one tombstone served for both. All around, there were monuments carved with armorial bearings; and on this simple slab of slate–as the curious investigator may still discern, and perplex himself with the purport–there appeared the semblance of an engraved escutcheon. It bore a device, a herald’s wording of which might serve for a motto and brief description of our now concluded legend; so somebre is it, and relieved only by one ever-glowing point of light gloomier than the shadow:– On a field, sable, the letter A, gules.'”

 
Elizabeth Pain gravestone in the King’s Chapel Burying Ground